The slough of despond

Day 28 and 103.5 kilos
Day 29 and 104.5 kilos

Wow! Four weeks without food or coffee and here's something peculiar - I have no desire to eat at the moment because my stomach feels full. I quite fancy a cup of coffee though. Anyway I'm two thirds of the way there - two more weeks and I've done it. Not eating is simple now but I definitely need to exercise. My brother suggested that I get into pilates - it is not something that I know anything about apart from what I have just read on Wikipedia. It does look interesting though and I'll look further into it. I tried doing sit ups and press ups yesterday - the sit ups were fine but because of my knee I am unable to hold my body straight to do a press up.

As you can see my weight is all over the place - I'm trying not to pay any attention to it as otherwise it becomes too depressing. I am completely baffled by not only the plateau but the rises and falls as well. I have gone up one kilo since yesterday morning - how is that possible? There seems little point asking. I feel that the last couple of weeks of the fast have been absolutely pointless other than the fact that my organs have had a rest. In my partcular case it seems that the first two weeks were extremely effective, although very difficult, and the second two weeks have been completely ineffective, although very easy. If I were ever to have the need to fast again, I would do two weeks and no more. The other thing that I am nervous about is that I suspect, with my metabolism practically at zero at the moment, once I start eating again the weight will pile on fast. I am tempted to break the fast and spend the next two weeks on raw fruit and vegetables because I feel as though I am achieving nothing at the moment.

Yesterday I made one of the things that I was fantasizing about in the days of my food porn - Beef Consomme. Oddly enough I looked at this recipe a couple of weeks back and felt it was overly complicated and that therefore I would never prepare it. Turns out that it's one of the first recipes in my book and as both of my housemates were out all day I thought that I'd give it a go. I followed the recipe meticulously which means that I have created and used my first mirepoix (chopped onion, celery and carrot ) and my first sachet d'epices (a sachet of herbs and spice). I'm feeling rather pleased with myself as it looks (it's flawlessly clear) and tastes exactly like it should (full of beefy beefiness) and surprisingly it was simple to make although slightly time consuming.